Levi’s 5th birthday is coming up in 10 days and today has given me some tough moments. This morning I reached into my sock drawer and pulled out one of Levi’s socks. I couldn’t believe it. It shocked me, what was his sock doing there and why was it today that I pulled it out? I had to go sit down with his sock and have a moment with it. I held It tight in my hand while thinking about getting him ready in the mornings and the sadness of not being able to do that anymore. I thought about putting it in my pocket for the day or carrying it in my purse. Then Glenn came in and I showed him the sock and he held it too. It’s the little things that really hit hard.

Can you say that a simple sock of your child’s takes you to your knees and knocks the breath out of you? Where you have to sit down and think about the sock?

This sock has such meaning to me. It was Levi’s and now he’s not here to put his foot in it. It just doesn’t seem right. I know he would be 5 this year but he will always be 3 1/2 years old to me. This sock wouldn’t even fit him now but in my mind his foot will always be that size.

Tonight while sitting here with Glenn and Victoria with Levi on my mind his little brother River made his presence known. I could feel strong kicks and Glenn and Victoria were able to see him making his movements. It put a smile on our faces. What a good way to send us a message that we have so much to look forward to and I know that our Levi is with us and he will always be his sister Toria and Rivers guardian angel and always by us.